Why is it that the ones you love the most seem to know how to cause you the most pain..... Why is it that I never get tired of hearing the EF call me beautiful...................Why is it that nothing can ever be simple as far as my friends and planning ANYTHING goes......... Why is it that they always come back- even when you don't think your heart can take it if things go sour yet again...... Why is it that you still consider BJ a friend after all that's gone on...........Why isn't this year over yet!!!...................Why is it that if someone even looks at you funny at that law school that you might up and pull a DMX on them and act a fool......................Why is it that he's stayed on your brain even when all the others have somehow managed to fade to black......... Why is it that all the truly great musicians are dead..........Why is it that people looking at Ricky Williams like he's crazy for walking away from that 25 mill? Why is it that I'd probably do the same thing if it meant my happiness...................Why is it that I've always felt like I understood him in all his strangeness.............Why is it that all of them live so damn far away.........Why is it that i'm going be in my city this weekend and i'm not overly excited about it [why be excited when it's only temporary happiness] ........Why is it that at 24 I'm more confused than ever about where I'm going and how to get there.........Why is it that I still haven't learned to let go of it after the prayer......Why is it that alcohol is virtually downright disgusting to me these days........Why is it that growth and maturity are so m'effin irritating?