So It's been a while
Yeah, well I've been busy living life these days. Exams are coming up and of course I'm freaking out and realizing just how little work I've done this semester. This leads me to wonder- what in the hell is my damn problem? How is it I think this work is supposed to do itself? Did the procrastination fairy come and drug me and induce me into believing that I was going to magically learn all the material for all of my classes without doing any work? I think she put this magical force field around me that kept all thoughts of reality out of my brain. Well, her damn force field has sufficiently expired!!!! Reality hit me in the face about 20 minutes ago, and it wasn't just a small smack ladies and gentlemen. Reality PIMPSMACKED ME like a hoe who's $400 short on payday to her pimp!!! Well, that means no sleep for me in the next few weeks, but I did it to myself so ohhhhh well. Mhhh any other recent developments....... oh Yes, Boston for NBLSA pretty great. Met a cutie who seems to be the male version of me.... weird huh? He's cool and I think for once in life I'm actually actively seeking to develop a friendship with someone before the relationship discussion comes into play. The Ex-factor is back wanting to sit down and talk, develop a friendship, etc etc. Okay this ish is all fine and damn dandy but why the hell now!!!! We still aren't in the same city, you still haven't proven that you've changed a single bit, and you are still as spastic and unpredictable as you've always been, and that so isn't a good thing. We'll see, I'm not holding my breath on either one of them at this point. I always play myself because I get my feelings entangled way earlier than I should. I'm about to learn to be neutral and detached until given a reason to be otherwise. I need a grown man, who's hitting on 30 and is sure of what he wants, not about playing games, and not about wasting my damn time!!!!!! I get tired of going through the motions and trying to figure out where dudes are coming from and if they want more than just a romp in the sack. Who knows man, at this point in time how about I figure out my life for the summertime and get through these exams.
Yeah, well I've been busy living life these days. Exams are coming up and of course I'm freaking out and realizing just how little work I've done this semester. This leads me to wonder- what in the hell is my damn problem? How is it I think this work is supposed to do itself? Did the procrastination fairy come and drug me and induce me into believing that I was going to magically learn all the material for all of my classes without doing any work? I think she put this magical force field around me that kept all thoughts of reality out of my brain. Well, her damn force field has sufficiently expired!!!! Reality hit me in the face about 20 minutes ago, and it wasn't just a small smack ladies and gentlemen. Reality PIMPSMACKED ME like a hoe who's $400 short on payday to her pimp!!! Well, that means no sleep for me in the next few weeks, but I did it to myself so ohhhhh well. Mhhh any other recent developments....... oh Yes, Boston for NBLSA pretty great. Met a cutie who seems to be the male version of me.... weird huh? He's cool and I think for once in life I'm actually actively seeking to develop a friendship with someone before the relationship discussion comes into play. The Ex-factor is back wanting to sit down and talk, develop a friendship, etc etc. Okay this ish is all fine and damn dandy but why the hell now!!!! We still aren't in the same city, you still haven't proven that you've changed a single bit, and you are still as spastic and unpredictable as you've always been, and that so isn't a good thing. We'll see, I'm not holding my breath on either one of them at this point. I always play myself because I get my feelings entangled way earlier than I should. I'm about to learn to be neutral and detached until given a reason to be otherwise. I need a grown man, who's hitting on 30 and is sure of what he wants, not about playing games, and not about wasting my damn time!!!!!! I get tired of going through the motions and trying to figure out where dudes are coming from and if they want more than just a romp in the sack. Who knows man, at this point in time how about I figure out my life for the summertime and get through these exams.
