So I just wasn't in the mood.......

I wasn't in the mood for class, life, people talking to me about their issues, working out, triflin negros, nagging parents, bar exam bills, whining friends, people telling me to be grateful about how good my life is, thinking about how much money i've spent in the past few days, worrying about the Ex Factor, CR, or any other random triflin negroids remaining in my life.
Hear me again when I say I JUST WASN'T IN THE MOOD!!!!!!!!!

It's not that I don't love my friends or look at my life and think about how much God really does take care of babies and fools and how I'm often a little bit of both all wrapped into one... NOPE not the case at all... I just didn't feel like giving a damn. Lies rolled off my tongue like water so I could avoid people today... I came up with all kinds of reasons I couldn't meet them for lunch, dinner, coffee, brunch.... whatever. How is it that you really tell someone that you're just not in the mood to even speak to them today, PERIOD... No one really wants to hear the truth so the lies temporarily appease them.. they call you crappy and you go on about your day. I didn't have a bad day just one of those days where I felt like dealing with a very finite group of people and the ones that weren't on that list got the royal eff you. I'm hoping they'll get over it and move in with their lives. I suspect I'm probably thinking about it way more than they are anyway.

I'm officially THE WORST

So it's been 5 months, 6 days, 19 hours and 11 seconds since I last blogged... well not quite but it's been a while since I've been in the building. From time to time I remind people that I'm here but I believe that they've come to expect that I not blog more than they expect me to blog. Well such is life.... ohhh by the way HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! (yeah I know I'm almost 2 months late but WHATEVER, at least I said it). A lot has been going on in my life since the first of the year. It's been a rocky start but it can seriously only get better.... I totaled my car a few weeks ago, had a couple of health issues, had more drama with the Negro patrol at my law school than a lil bit and been running ALL over the country just being involved. It's been crazy to say the least. A little update on the Men in My Life:
Ex Factor: We finally talked and got pretty much most of our issues worked out. Things still creep up every now and again but I'm happy with the place that we are right now. I was actually nice and decided to send him a bday present and he loved it :-)

Enigma: NO CHANGE... talked to him a few days before Christmas... it was like old times and then he became distant and noncommunicative yet again. I honestly don't have time to play out drama with grown men. IS HE SERIOUS A GROWN BLACK MAN ACTING LIKE THAT??!! I'm officially giving up.

CSI: Officially history PERIOD.

CR: He needs to be history.... but he's still here. This is what happen when you finally get to spend some time around someone and enjoy yourself: YOU GET STUPID!!! I went to his city for a conference and although we had little intermittent spots of drama I enjoyed myself and allowed my feelings to start to develop for him. The problem with CR is that he's so wrapped up in himself and being busy that I don't feel like he's got time for me. We've had several talks about it and he assures me that isn't the case.... still he's just not as thoughtful, attentive, and considerate as he needs to be and that bothers me. My head tells me to cut him lose but my heart is NOT LISTENING. We'll see how this develops.....

Okay so that's all for now.... I'll try to come back a little later.... tata for now :-)