Everything Changes.............
I am about the only person I know who starts a blog entry and waits a doggone MONTH to finish it..... I've been meaning to get back to this for a while because there are some things that I just wanted to say and go ahead and put out there. I think this whole post was inspired by the fact that an AJC blog that I discovered a year and some days ago has undergone some serious changes.......I might be on a whole stream of consciousness thing today so bear with me on this.... I'm a different person than I was two years ago yet so many of the things that I truthfully love about myself are still there...... I think i'm slowly learning how to let go of the those negative habits-- the negativity, the pessimism, the skepticism, only having faith when things go my way. I'm truly trying to be better, and it's such a humbling experience. I just wrote an email to a former friend asking her forgiveness for my part in the breakdown of her relationship. That was such a difficult thing to do because she hurt me so much in the past and caused such strife in so many of my other relationships. I feel like it's a sign that maybe I'm growing up.... maybe just maybe I'm learning what it truly means to walk with God..... maybe just maybe i'm shedding that spoiled kid, everything must go NJE's way or the highway attitude......... It's time to make some changes.....
05 definitely produced some of the greatest triumphs and most heartwrenching personal losses that I have ever known in my 25 years on this planet. I'm slowly learning that somewhere in between all your plans life happens..... and your good, bad, and ugly choices all have consequences and reprocussions. It's something that I've always known, always heard, but never really listened to until this past year. I'm becoming an adult..... a responsible adult...... one that doesn't want to have to learn every lesson in life the hard way. I know one thing.... and something that I will always remember.... God Changes things, there is no obstacle, no issue, no health problem, no man-made strife, that's too big for him and that faith in him and his power will be what sustains me from now until forever...... I will leave 06 and go into 07 with a powerful testimony of what God has done in my life and this I know....... I said this would definitely be a stream of consciousness post.... and true to form it is.......these were just some things that were on my mind, in my heart, and within my spirit to share........
I hope ya'll all had a wonderful New Year.......Happy 06 (like 18 days late.... but still, I said it)
05 definitely produced some of the greatest triumphs and most heartwrenching personal losses that I have ever known in my 25 years on this planet. I'm slowly learning that somewhere in between all your plans life happens..... and your good, bad, and ugly choices all have consequences and reprocussions. It's something that I've always known, always heard, but never really listened to until this past year. I'm becoming an adult..... a responsible adult...... one that doesn't want to have to learn every lesson in life the hard way. I know one thing.... and something that I will always remember.... God Changes things, there is no obstacle, no issue, no health problem, no man-made strife, that's too big for him and that faith in him and his power will be what sustains me from now until forever...... I will leave 06 and go into 07 with a powerful testimony of what God has done in my life and this I know....... I said this would definitely be a stream of consciousness post.... and true to form it is.......these were just some things that were on my mind, in my heart, and within my spirit to share........
I hope ya'll all had a wonderful New Year.......Happy 06 (like 18 days late.... but still, I said it)
